it's a strange day, my friends from college were planning a rendez-vous through a social-media to meet my (other) friend whom has her delivery today (yaay)... at first, the conversation was a normal when-where to meet kind of stuff, but at the end they started to add some child talks... 

suddenly i realize my surrounding, some petrophysic books, bunch of scrap papers full of formula, relatively big apartment with just me, thousand miles away from my husband and my family, and one more year of scholarship contract...

i know i have to be grateful for this opportunity (i am grateful)..

but i cant stop imagining a life together with him and our baby(ies) in our own house..

d*** those Pc curves makes me so sappy..